I think this is a goodbye
Guess what idiot droped her iphone, yep thats right me.
I can barely read or do anything on it. so I’m not really sure how i’m gonna update tumblr, my personal computer doesnt let me on to my tumblr dashboard and its almost imposable to do anything on my phone now, i’m using my family computer now, while i’m backing up my phone. So i guess there isnt going to be any post from me until my phone is fixed.
oh and guess what else happnes after i drop my phone, I’m out with friends and of all the people in the world to show up, its TJ and Shane. Shane is a sweet heart, hes not the problem, TJ is. the truth is i wanna fucking die when ever i hear his name, and when ever i see him. truth is he scares me, he is one of the reasons for my anxitey, he is one of the reasons i dont wanna ever get close to any guy or anyone for that matter. I dont want anyone to ever do what he did to me, ever again. And you know whats sad, when i saw TJ the first thing that ran though my head was “Wheres Andy I’m scared out of my mind, i just wanna cry to him again, i want him to come ant make things better” He was the one who saved me from TJ last time.
And you know whats even worst, I’m sitting here after i finally stopped crying and i’m still shaking.
TJ just had to hug me, I wanna just burn all my skin now; i dont feel ok.I really dont feel like living now.
I want a time machine. I don’t care if it can’t go back to over two years ago to that day, I don’t care if it can’t go back far enough to all the billion times I screwed up after that, as long as it can go back to the homecoming football game, so I can try to fix things. Try to make things right. Life would be different if I had courage that day.
My life would be so much better.
But of course there are no time machines.
Just give me one chance to make things right. Just one chance. Please.
I wish you would step back
From that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you’ve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand
Well he’s on the table and he’s gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What they’re doing here
And your friends have left you
You’ve been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know
Everyone’s got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away
I write this on my hand a lot, I wish when things get rough I could remember it.
“Why can’t I just hold it true?”~ Senses Fail
It’s so easy when you’re fake believing
Untruly speaking, wrecking feelings
It’s so easy sparking opposite ends
Fighting the good within, hiding my reasons
Stranger I know so well
You got me tripping over myself
Can’t trust in you
‘Cause as I reach for your hand
I still sink into quicksand
Isn’t my good side worth rescuing?
So yeah I stole this off Facebook but really I think everyone needs to read this.
I should have listened when you whispered my name, still you couldn’t say
Cause you couldn’t say goodbye
Now I cannot ask you why
Although our time is through
No getting over you
Things will never be the same
I can’t even say your name
I know our time is through
No getting over you
Getting over you
Why in the world am I down at the beach during private school beach week? I wanna be down here during public school beach week. Looks like i’m coming down here next week end too :P
I find it so funny you can tell that it’s private school beach week just by looking at the people down here. I’m sorry I don’t mean to sound mean but 90% of the people down here for private school beach week look like they are trying wayyyyy to hard. Like you can just walk the board walk and you can tell by looking at people that it’s private school beach week.
Surprisingly I didn’t see any one from my school what so ever.
About me
I'm a total daydreamer, I write songs. I'm in high school.
Photography and music are basically everything to me.
I take a lot of photos and I talk about my life way too much.
These are my some of my favorite quotes
Ask me whatever you want, I’ll always answer.
I reblog stuff over here
The URL comes from the Eyes Set To Kill song The Secrets Between////we all have secrets.
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~"In the end it’s not about what you have.
In the end it’s all about where you want to go
And the roads you take to help you get there.
I hope you think that’s fair
Cause you’ve only got one life to lead.
So don’t take for granted those little things.
Those little things are all that we have.”~
