Wake Up, You're A Drama Queen

i dont fucking understand you. You say you listen to metal but you wont show up to see Texas In July...

Sun, 19 May 2013 03:15:37 -0400

i dont fucking understand you. You say you listen to metal but you wont show up to see Texas In July and apparently Warped Tour is to big of a pain in the ass for you to go see The Black Dahlia Murder when you say they are your “favorite” band. But you’ll go out and see Macklemore

I don’t know what i ever saw in you, because truth is you really piss me off.

"I’m over listening I don’t need anything I’m a classic train wreck..."

Sat, 18 May 2013 20:35:32 -0400

“I’m over listening
I don’t need anything
I’m a classic train wreck walking
I’m deaf to the words they’re talking
I’m locked in this prison of society
This world’s full of liars and cheats
So call me what you wanna but you won’t destroy me”

- Forget About Me, Escape The Fate

Everyone at school is pissed by how I’m ignoring everyone around school but after what...

Thu, 16 May 2013 21:47:26 -0400

Everyone at school is pissed by how I’m ignoring everyone around school but after what I’ve been through this past week I just needed to do it. Because I need to take care of myself right now. Which means I can’t make my self sick at school every god damn day and I just need room to breath.

"Sometimes before it gets better The darkness gets bigger The person that you’d take a bullet for is..."

Thu, 16 May 2013 18:34:59 -0400

“Sometimes before it gets better
The darkness gets bigger
The person that you’d take a bullet for is behind the trigger
Oh, we’re fading fast
I miss missing you now and then”

- Miss Missing You, Fall Out Boy

Excuse me while I go play in traffic because I’m freaking out and I really should be going to bed.

Wed, 15 May 2013 22:25:24 -0400

Excuse me while I go play in traffic because I’m freaking out and I really should be going to bed.

And now i’m sitting in alone in a psychiatrist office waiting for my appointment. And this...

Wed, 15 May 2013 16:29:41 -0400

And now i’m sitting in alone in a psychiatrist office waiting for my appointment. And this makes me think of all the shitty things that have happened to me since I was a little kid. And the fact that I have no one who really means something to me because if I did I wouldn’t be here alone. And it’s been killing me because I’m going to go in there and they are just going to tell me I’m even more fucked up than before. And that they keep saying its an emergency and I had to see this guy immediately and that makes me worried, and all that time I wasted trying to get better i was only getting worse.

"Clear the apartment. I plan on collapsing and I could have sworn I heard a car door slam. I’m..."

Tue, 14 May 2013 20:33:23 -0400

“Clear the apartment. I plan on collapsing
and I could have sworn I heard a car door slam.
I’m stuck at the corner of grinding teeth and stomach acid, all alone
under a soft rain and streetlamp.”

- I Just Want To Sell Out My Funeral, The Wonder Years

Let’s keep it a secret

Tue, 14 May 2013 09:45:03 -0400

Let’s keep it a secret

You obviously don’t understand anything

Mon, 13 May 2013 21:42:19 -0400

You obviously don’t understand anything

I won’t forget the day that, that I found GodIn a kitchen knife now and on my armSo paint the...

Mon, 13 May 2013 19:40:49 -0400

I won’t forget the day that, that I found God
In a kitchen knife now and on my arm
So paint the pale white floor with, with my red life
And tell myself this pain is the pain I love
As I swallow the pills of happiness
And you watch me fall like New York in an earthquake

Constantly contemplating the shitty decisions I make

Mon, 13 May 2013 14:49:45 -0400

Constantly contemplating the shitty decisions I make

"You could do better Better than that You’re a fraud Thank God and learn to keep your shirt on. You..."

Sun, 12 May 2013 20:42:32 -0400

“You could do better
Better than that
You’re a fraud
Thank God and learn to keep your shirt on.
You could do better”

- Do Better, Say Anything

"What if I told you that I’d never hurt you? Always be there for you to hold on to. I know you..."

Sat, 11 May 2013 21:06:38 -0400

“

What if I told you that I’d never hurt you?
Always be there for you to hold on to.
I know you make me feel alive

And every single second’s a lifetime memory,
I’ll be holding on to each moment
‘Cause you make me

”

- Alive, Adelitas Way

i was at the store with my dad and a guy came up to us and he was pushing a cart with his daughter...

Sat, 11 May 2013 16:35:00 -0400

i was at the store with my dad and a guy came up to us and he was pushing a cart with his daughter in and she was blonde and about 9 years old and the guy started talking to us and he was like wow long time no see and he seemed really happy to see usand then asked me about school and he and my dad talked about my brother a little. Then the guy went way and my dad and i were both like who the hell was that.

I just remembered now who it was…

It was my ex boyfiend’s dad and little sister.

That drives me insane that i saw them after all this time, and just holyfuck i cant believe it. I remembered the little girl’s face but i couldn’t remember who’s sister it was.

So the worst part is what actually made me remember who it was. The dad’s smile, him and his son have the exact same smile.

no omfg senses fail is retiring 187, this is not ok that means I’ll never see my favorite song...

Fri, 10 May 2013 21:39:42 -0400

no omfg senses fail is retiring 187, this is not ok that means I’ll never see my favorite song live

i guess i really fucked up

Fri, 10 May 2013 21:00:43 -0400

i guess i really fucked up

"The currents strong, The waves will rise The binding chains made me realize Sin is the anchor,..."

Fri, 10 May 2013 20:58:21 -0400

“The currents strong,
The waves will rise
The binding chains made me realize
Sin is the anchor, holding you down.
I’m on a cruise to Paradise.
I’m done with sin I’ve paid my price.
God is your captain,
Change your direction”

- Take One Last Breath, Abandon All Ships

You always said things were going to get better

Fri, 10 May 2013 02:12:26 -0400

You always said things were going to get better

how did i go from failing one class to failing 3 classes and barely passing the other classes?

Thu, 09 May 2013 22:16:06 -0400

how did i go from failing one class to failing 3 classes and barely passing the other classes?

"Sometimes i’m dreaming She hopes to open shadowed eyes on a different world Come to me scared..."

Thu, 09 May 2013 20:27:09 -0400

“

Sometimes i’m dreaming
She hopes to open shadowed eyes
on a different world
Come to me
scared princess
Charlotte sometimes

On that bleak track
See the sun is gone again
The tears were pouring down her face
She was crying and crying for a girl
who died so many years before

”

- Charlotte Sometimes, The Cure